Un Poco Loco
Estoy aqui en los estados unidos; no, espera, estoy aqui en el mundo. And I am well, if not a little bit crazy right now, like the title of this entry suggests.
I had a dream the other night about kissing Jaime Foxx and then seeing my dad (events not related). Yes, that’s right, I saw my dad, who’s been gone for over seven years now. These dreams of him have happened a handful of times over the past years, but it is always startling and takes many days of wishful, tearful, and thankful contemplation to adjust to seeing him again. I gave him a big hug and asked him where he has been. He replied that he has been at the apartment on campus, which is where we lived when I grew up until I was six. It was no small dream….I feel he came as if to say, “I’m here with you.” (No comment as to what the Jaime Fox appearance meant.) But, damn, it was soooooooooooo great to see my dad. I needed that hug.
I just came back from a night out with an old friend. Talking philosophically the whole time as we had been, I find it fitting that I turn to you to share my feelings. Let me vibe on them…
So many nights, I feel alone; so many nights, I feel at home; so many nights, I feel entwined, and it’s when I really sit still that I can feel fine. True, I continue on with my quest, even though there are others that think they know best. I try to state my point of view, as people talk on grasping to straws so few. It’s all just the same; it’s all just a game. We’re trying to live lives that aren’t in vain. To know that I hold a different mind can circumvent pressure and undermine time. Pushing away a certain tranquility is a mode that’s a road to self ability….so many nights…
So many nights.
So many nights.
(And I give props to Manu Chao* for his propensity.)
*If you are not familiar with Manu Chao, he’s a musical artist with tracks in Spanish, French, Portuguese, English, and Arabic (with perhaps others) and is worth giving listen to, if you are one for the electronic music scene. He uses live instruments too, and I have a compilation mix that has been rockin’ my world for over a month now. Email me about him if you’re curious.
I told you once, I told you twice…
